A New Day.

Well this is my first blog. I am a little nervous. I am thinking about how much these things really represent who you are as a person.. and in what direction you are heading. I want people to see the real me... and then again not the me I am, but the me I am trying to be. Does that make since? I like it when people add in pictures are really show you what they are talking about... hopefully I will figure out how to do all of that.

I recently (June 26th) celebrated my fourth year being married to BJ. WOW! It has been such an amazing journey. I remember when I first met him... I thought that he was SO on fire for God, but still a bit clueless. We were both trying to figure things out and I am so glad we gave each other a shot! Today, I look at Bj and its like he is a new man. Never would I have imagined being married to someone as God fearing as BJ. He is constantly encouraging me to become a better christian. How blessed I am to have him in my life! Did I mention he is just about the Hottest guy I have ever seen? lol I know, I know. He says I ruin things talking like that... oh well! lol

This past year has been a defining one in my life (not that being a wife and mother are not TRULY defining...) I finally decided to go back to school.. and WENT! I guess there are several people who got me to this point... Denise (the person I also thank for helping me make my blog...) who motivated me in ways she will never even know... and my sister Kim. Who, even though I hate to admit it, really pushed me to go back. She had started going back to school herself and who wants to be out-done by their sister? lol I am really enjoying this time in my life, even though its hard to juggle my house, my hubby, my toddler, AND school. I feel like I am finally coming into my own. It's so hard to explain how much this has changed me emotionally. I feel like my life is going in a direction, and that I am FINALLY 'becoming' my future.. instead of simply waiting for it to come to me. I am also finally pressing back into the word... or at least trying to. Bj has such big dreams for us spiritually.. I have been TERRIFIED! I am finally saying, "its ok God.. use me!"

Lillie turned 2 this year! She is turning into such a little grown person!!! Its so fun to watch her become this little lady. I can remember when I found out I was pregnant... All that I had went though in the 13 months before... taking test after test and not knowing how hard it would be to conceive, It was like God handed me this little wonderful gift in the form of a +. For those of you who would call that a plus sign, its not. It is a cross. It means redemption and I tell you it brought me to my knees! The first time I saw her, Bj and I just cried and thanked God... and now two years later I catch myself crying still. What a miracle! We just finished our second year of water babies. She did GREAT.. she was going under the water and blowing her bubbles. The last day of class she was even going under and picking up toys of the bottom of the baby pool! I am so proud. She is truly not a baby anymore. We are still struggling with the potty training issue... not really struggling... I am letting her go at her own pace. Which for me is WAY too slow! lol Knowing that the first time she peed on the potty was LAST year I get so discouraged, but I know she is well on her way and will get there when she is ready! She is so smart and gifted. I know that God will use her is such a mighty way! He has already used her to motivate me!

Speaking of my child... I guess I should write about the new baby Bj and I are going to have. :) No, I am not pregnant, yet. The bible says in Romans 4:17 that God "called those things that be not as though they were!" I am standing in faith and am doing the same! When I got pregnant with Lillie I wanted my kids to be 2 years apart. I had a 'plan' you see about how my life was going to go. Its funny because I didn't ask God about that plan, but He showed me I was wrong! We started trying about 10 months ago, yes that is a LONG time for a person whose child keeps getting OLDER and OLDER lol... now my 2 year old will surely be a 3 year old before a baby possibly arrives. I went to the Dr. in May and I found out that I was not ovulating. I tell you that hits you HARD when you are trying for a baby. I cried and cried after my doctors appointment and called Bj just sobbing on the phone. I have prayed a MILLION times that if it was not Gods will for me to have another baby for him to take the desire from me, but he never has. In fact I feel it stronger than ever now. So what was going on?? Bj prayed with me and a couple days later a peace settled in my heart. God was taking me a different way. We have been doing a body temp. chart since then and yesterday I started Clomid (a drug used to stimulate your ovaries) for the first time. I am so excited about this new chapter in my life. I am believing that God has already begun to answer our prayers! His word says, in Psalms 127:4-5, "Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are sons born in one's youth. Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them." They say call in your blessings.. you better believe I AM CALLING IT IN! :)

Ok so I know this was a LONG one... but it was my first one! Hopefully, I will be on here blogging again really soon! I would like to leave with a short prayer...

"Father God, I thank you for this day that you have given us, and for the chance to praise your name today! I ask that you bless every person that reads this blog. Touch their hearts Lord. Bring them to a new place with you. Put a longing in them to worship and praise you like they never have, and to thank you for making them who they are. I thank you for blessing me with wonderful friends and family who Love you! Please place a hedge of protection around them and keep them safe! In Jesus name I pray, Amen. "