I have been flooded with memories of one year ago today. December 6th was the day I took my pregnancy test and was SO super excited to see a positive sign. We were going to have a baby! I also remember what happened next. When the dr told us the pregnancy was bad and that our baby was not going to make it. I remember how lost I felt and how overwhelmed with sorrow I was over this child that I never knew... but wanted so badly. I remember drawing close to God in that time. Seeking his face all day everyday and crying out to him for the life of my child.
As I look into the beautiful blue eyes of my little Summer Rose I cannot help but thank God for that time. As hard as it was, it taught me a lot about the peace that God can give us in the midst of lifes hurricanes.
Summer is 4 months old. Time is flying by, again, but I am so blessed to be able to watch her grow. She is such a smart baby. Already trying to crawl and sit by herself. I know the time of her getting into everything is drawing near. She laughes all the time and she even likes to sing along to christmas music! We are getting ready to celebrate her FIRST christmas! :) While she doesnt really know whats going on.. I do. I know how sweet these moments are and I dont want to miss a thing! 
Lillie is getting super excited about Christmas too! She is constantly adding another item to her list of 'wants.' lol I think she is starting to understand a bit more about giving too and told me she wanted to go pick out a gift for her daddy. She has been in Gymnastics for a month now and LOVES it! The other kids have been in a while longer than her but she is catching on quickly. I just like that she finally found something she likes to do! We have been working on spelling her name and recognizing letters. She can spell it pretty good now and can even type it when I help her. I am proud of her. I know that she will be reading before we know it. She is such a beautiful blessing to me and BJ.
BJ and I are also getting into the holiday spirit! We put some lights on the house yesterday and I think tonight I am going to pull out my White Christmas movie and make some hot choc for Lillie! :) It is so cold, FINALLY, now so it makes me want to eat a lot of chili and roast marshmellows!
Bj is so dear to me. In one week we will celebrate the 6 year anniversary of the day we met. :) The best day of my life. :) We had no idea then that we will be here now... but I am sure glad we are! 
